When I worked full time, I envied and held a grudge toward stay-at-home moms. They hung out front of my cart at Target, blocking my path during my lunch break, wearing comfy work-out clothes, sipping on Starbucks and gossiping about whatever they gossiped about. They made me late while trying to run errands during my one free hour during daytime. They dallied over lunch drinking wine and laughing while I scarfed down my food and ran back to the office. I hated them and wanted to be them at the same time.
Now I am one of them. And now I understand. That Starbucks at Target or leisurely lunch may be the only interaction she has with a person who doesn't throw cheerios in her face or smear their snot on your shorts before. I don't wake up in time to shower before my son wakes up. I would have to drag out of bed at 5am for that and seriously, who do I need to blow dry my hair for? Especially when it's going to have snot, bananas and cheerios in my hair, probably by noon. I was getting into a good routine. Our house was relatively clean. My husband even noticed. Then I got pregnant again. And it's been going downhill ever since, which is frustrating because I'm in the nesting mode. But I'm tired from chasing a 16 month old around and picking him up. Let's face it, when he throws that sweet look, lifts his arms and says "up!", I find it near impossible to resist. And it's getting to be near impossible to do as well. I mean, look at this face:
Moms do a lot. Working outside the home or not. It's not easy keeping all the balls in the air, especially with a smile on your face. I have plans to get my shit together once #2 is here. I'm going to have a schedule. I've tried Flylady but it's just..i don't know. I don't like the message delivery system. I found an iphone app. I may try it. I'm not sure. Being a stay at home mom is a job and I will treat it like one, kinda like what I was doing before. I'll let you know how that works out for me..ha!
Yeah, I want to pick him up too! What a cute pic!! Ps where did you find the cite monkey hat? Love it!
ReplyDeleteGreat post! I remember the days when I used to wake up at 5am to get ready for work, and think longingly about the SAHM days that were hopefully in my future. Because I guess I thought I'd get to sleep in!? Ha!
ReplyDeleteSteph - thanks! He found that hat and was running around the other day making me put it on his head. It was 80 degrees outside. :-) I think we got it at Target. DH of course didn't want me to buy it because he thought it looked silly. HA!
ReplyDeleteLauren - yeah, I thought it'd be so easy and relaxed. I think I put unrealistic June cleaver expectations on myself (thank you, society). And she did it all in heels?!? Puh-lease!
Amen! Ditto to everything you said and ditto to Lauren's comment, as well. I slept later when I worked, and I worked a whole heck of a lot less than I do now. Some days I find myself envying the working mom. Just to have five minutes of alone time each day would be...bliss. :)
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